Archive for May, 2009


Heart vs Mind

Heart vs. Mind: a battle that most of us fight, deep inside themselves. Heart: the desires, the dreams, the ideals…Mind: to do what is “good”, to think on the long term, to be “wise”. Some fight this battle their whole lives. Others simply ignore  either heart or mind, and become either extremely emotional or extermely cold and calulcated.

So far (but I am still quite young, I guess) I surely would feel under the first group. Interesting (or worrying?) is that it seems  that slowly the focus from heart seems to shift to mind…Is that what they mean by getting mature?

The only solution for persons like me is to find the balance: realise a dream by a well planned long term strategy perhaps, or just to follow the heart within borders defined by mind. It would not be a bad choice, most likely: no one less then the Dalai Lama taught us  to search for balance in life always. He says that all in the universe is a delicate balance between opposites, and since he is the Sea of Wisdom, most likely he would be quite right.

My eternal internal fight between Mind  and Heart became heavenly again recently because of the fierce attempts of Zigg, where I run my project, to to sign me permanently. Heart was not to0 happy with it: the past few years I worked hard for another Asian experience, and by now the required amount of money has been gathered. Mind thought more practically though: the offer could be quite  good, there is an economic recession, and another Asian adventure could be followed by another episode of depdence of friends and family once back in Holland, without any place to stay and - most likely - a negative bank account. Would it not be good to buy a house first, become more experienced and specialised, and then make the move?

After severe fights and negotiations (the fact those are there, might already indicate a certain power balance in favour of Mind), Heart and Mind came to terms. Ziggo would get his chance. Ziggo almost blew it up by a ridiculous low offer, but realised its misstake just in time and came with a more then reasonable offe.

Well, today will be D-day…Changes will be big I will sign, thus delaying my Asian-dream, even though there still is my vacation coming up soon. Then, Asia would not run away, would it?